Saturday, June 25, 2011

Letter to a friend.

Eddie 1968 - 2011

Dearest Eds:

When I sent you a text to call me I didn't expect to receive a call from the ICU unit of the hospital.  You know I hate roller coasters and from the moment I answered that call it was as if I was being buckled in for a ride.

Eddie from the beginning of our friendship there were days you would make me laugh hysterically.  There were days you would make me angry that I wanted to put on the heels and get my ass on over there to bitch slap you.  Then there were the days you would make me smile or roll my eyes at your silly comments.   But you never made me cry until this week.

Thank you for being my friend.  Thank you for always having my back and taking on my battles.  Thank you for sending me a text last week telling me you loved me.  Thank you for now giving me the gift of a new friend, that through our grief we have discovered why you loved us both.

My voice was the last one you heard as you made your next journey to paradise and for that I will always be grateful.  Did you like what I said?  You must have, you moved your head and took your last breath.  Were you laughing?

Today I will celebrate our friendship and if I cry a little more please understand.

Always,
Nubian

18 comments:

  1. Raw and honest. Thank you for sharing this. It's moving and it makes me think of a friend from long ago.

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  2. Friends are such a crucial part of our lives. Very sorry for your loss Nubian. The letter is beautiful.

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  3. Death is something we mortals will never understand but have to accept. It's a difficult and painful decision to think of something so beyond our grasp as a beautiful yet grievous part of nature. Your letter resonates with love and acceptance, something your departed friend will surely be proud of, and it is also something I am not capable of. This was beautiful beyond imagining and anyone's expectation.

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  4. dbs ~ David ~ Tim ~ Leila

    Thank you.

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  5. I am sorry for your loss. :(

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  6. Nubian,
    what does one say about losing a friend?
    I'm sorry for your loss doesn't cover it...:(

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  7. I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you today. Sending you HUGS.

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  8. What a beautiful tribute to your friend. I'm thinking of you Lidia.

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  9. Wonderful thoughts, and thanks for sharing Nubian! - your friendship means the world to M & me :-)

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  10. i'm so sorry. what a massive emotional upheaval. it's an honor to be the last one to speak to him.

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  11. This makes me sad. You're always so blunt and honest in your writing. Thanks for posting about your friend.

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  12. Thank you to everyone for your kind words. I wish I could hug each and everyone one of you for reaching out. xox

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  13. I find myself coming back everyday to take one more look at your face Ed's...and I just stare at you while countless memories and images move like water but break like waves. Seasons may change winter to spring; I will love you until my dying day. Lids you told me you started this Blog to vent....if it is okay by you I'll come to this page to mend.
    Always
    Marihette

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  14. This was so very touching. I'm sorry for your loss.

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  15. I am so sorry you lost your friend. This was very powerful. God bless you both.

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  16. I could not have imagined being in your shoes! Thank you for being there for all of us. Hugs from you know where I am.
    Sam

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  17. I finally got around to reading this.

    My heart goes out to you for what you have endured over the last few weeks.. Please know, I am here for you, anytime day or night.

    Many of us knew him, but it's evident he held you in high esteem. Thank you for loving him completely unconditionally.

    xox

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