Facebook and deleting a friend.

Normally I don't have a problem deleting friends on Facebook.  I am currently having the hardest time deleting my friend Eddie.

I can't bear to have the pop ups on the side of my screen telling me that Eddie likes Microsoft, David Beckham, Courage Campaign etc.  I reached for my phone when Google was discussing Google + as Eddie was not a fan and then I realized. 

While on the phone with my dearest friend H today I went to Eddie's page and just broke down.  I had not been to Eddie's page since he passed away. 

I can seriously hear Eddie say "Listen Beotch, it's only a page."

I know.  Maybe tomorrow.

Letter to a friend.

Eddie 1968 - 2011

Dearest Eds:

When I sent you a text to call me I didn't expect to receive a call from the ICU unit of the hospital.  You know I hate roller coasters and from the moment I answered that call it was as if I was being buckled in for a ride.

Eddie from the beginning of our friendship there were days you would make me laugh hysterically.  There were days you would make me angry that I wanted to put on the heels and get my ass on over there to bitch slap you.  Then there were the days you would make me smile or roll my eyes at your silly comments.   But you never made me cry until this week.

Thank you for being my friend.  Thank you for always having my back and taking on my battles.  Thank you for sending me a text last week telling me you loved me.  Thank you for now giving me the gift of a new friend, that through our grief we have discovered why you loved us both.

My voice was the last one you heard as you made your next journey to paradise and for that I will always be grateful.  Did you like what I said?  You must have, you moved your head and took your last breath.  Were you laughing?

Today I will celebrate our friendship and if I cry a little more please understand.

Always,
Nubian